Are my friends trying to ditch me?
For the last couple of days I feel like my friends have been really distant, we have a small group in a class together I’ll call them lily, piper,Beth,dean,kenji,ally. I’m closer with some of them than I am others but I’m still super friendly to everyone and I still consider us friends and all semester we’ve been fine but lately I feel like I’ve been pushed to the side both figuratively and literally, lately my friend Lily who sits beside me have been moving her chair and going to the end where everyone else is sitting which I get she’s trying to be part of the group and everything but then I’m left with no one infront or beside so I just sit by myself and I also feel left out of the conversation, now I will say that I am an antisocial person but even the times I have tried to join the conversation they answer shortly and then kind of leave me out but I also can’t tell if I’m not being social enough or being too dry. And today when I came to class my friend Kenji who brought bubbles and my two friends Lily and Piper where blowing the bubbles as well and I walked over and tried to join the conversation but they were laughing about something before hand about something Kenji did and I tried to ask what he said but they just kind of ignored me and I don’t know if they did it on purpose or if they didn’t hear me, I also have my other friend Dean who is someone I’m kinda close with but not as much but we normally don’t talk as much however lately he’s been more talkative and asking me questions and sort of including me in games and stuff which is really nice but also odd. I also have a crush on him but I am way to shy to say anything to him or anyone and with the way he’s been acting and actually talking to me I can’t tell if he’s being nice or he might like me back but I also feel like he might be flirting with our friend Ally because there are very close and they tease each other but I can not tell if it’s like sibling teasing or flirting because sometimes they bond about there interests and the next they’re throwing colored pencils at each other. I am also aware of the fact I’m not very attractive or skinny so i know my chances are low, but I’m mostly scared of losing my friends because one of them, Lily, I’ve known since freshman year and I don’t want to ruin our friend group because I bring this up and they don’t see what I see.
So if you could give me some advice about what to do with my friends and if you could maybe give advise about dean too that would be appreciated.