u/Extension-Ring-2370

I dont search anymore, if thats what you mean.

I was searching for someone once, hoping for an answer to a question I dared not ask. I gave up on that search long ago.

Just here for the words now.

I am deeply sorry that I made you feel unsafe, and I have no interest in contact with you while I make you feel that way.

And of course it hurts. And I dont understand it. But understanding is not necessary. And the hurt is mine to bear.

Of course you are not a bad person. You did nothing wrong.

I am sorry that my attempts at repair made things worse. I regret the attempts.

As you have done, I will let you go. It fills me with grief, but I will accept it.

I still cant bring myself to say goodbye.