i hate my job and hate myself even more.
i’m a sex worker (i do onlyfans and i’m basically an online prostitute lol) and i hate it. i have to get drunk every time i work or else i’ll just sit there feeling like an absolute piece of shit for what i do. i mean it pays the bills and i’m basically able to drink and smoke weed whenever i want, but i’m still fucking miserable. i wake up with stomach pain, end up vomiting bile and shitting water most of the time. i hate that i got myself stuck in this cycle of just smoking and drinking damn near everyday just to feel the tiniest bit of “happiness” i know it’s not true happiness (no shit) and it’s just me forgetting about my shitty ass life and feeling numb. i’m drinking right now as i wait for the next horny bastard to send me money. cheers i guess 🍻