I have been suffering every day since appendicitis
I am 19 years old and I had my appendix removed (unburst) on March 26. Since then I have been having terrible symptoms.
Since the day of the surgery I have been saying something is wrong, you don't understand, etc...I started having attacks in the hospital, and those attacks are caused by a terrifying internal feeling that something is very wrong. Like, an internal feeling that something is deeply changed, wrong, different, uncomfortable (small word), and it causes physical symptoms, such as a fast heartbeat, pressure changes etc. They took it as post syrgery stress in the hospital and sent me home after 4 days. When I came back home, I had an attack the first night after the hospital and I went to the ER and had my blood pressure measured aa 150/110 in the attack, they too took it as panic and gave me a benzodiapine to calm down and sent me home, and almost laughed at me. I also felt a strange sensaiton in the top of my nose like blood in the top of my nose that is always somehow there but subtle. I have been feeling extremely unwell though functional in these 2 months. I have jumps in heartrate that I think have reached 140-150 -haven't measured, but I have had access to a pulse meter once, and it was 120 , and I was even feeling calmer than usual that moment. I've had nights, especially after hospital but later too, when I couldn't sleep at all, I just lie down with my eyes closed, and tremble, not because of panic, but because I feel so weak inside that I feel I will die. I have never been like that- when I shake, I can't respond to people, I might even urinate myself, that's how bad I feel. And I trust my gut more than anyone else including doctors. That's where the attacks come from. I know something is terribly wrong. I also have trouble swallowing at times, though never with food or drink only I have to repeat a few times with my saliva. Everyone, literally everyone dismisses me for being fine but I am not.
All I ever got from my surgeon is that "surgery is a stressful procedure to the body" and that "everything is okay because my labs are good'
It is not even a feeling that I will die. It isn't a fear, that's what I mean. That's what I feel with my gut. I feel weak, very weak, for no reason like I'm going to pass out.
I trust my gut, like I said, more than anyone. I know something is wrong because I feel it. I had a fucking surgery. Let's not be black and white. Anything , a little minor detail could've been done to me that could've fucked me up long-term. A little scratch with the laparoscope, a little scratch with the intubation tube, hell, everyone is different, maybe someone can't undergo a surgery without longterm effects. I feel like there's wet wipes in my airways and mouth 24/7. Fast heartbeat, pressure changes, I feel fucking horrible.