Had a break up and now question myself
I was in a 3 year of long distance relationship, loyal 22 years old (F) and virg*n and now we finally met
And I lost it with him and he promised getting engaged
But it was our 5th meet and I got a snapchat streak from my school classmate and he asked me to unlock my phone and i did and gave my phone to him , he just became so furious why u have other guys I said there are only 3,4 people who knows me from past 10 yrs
And btw they were our mutual as we both went to same school and then he moved to some other country
So he took my v* and at the same time called me a cunt , characterless and what not
I was completely broken that i wanted it with my husband and I wanted respect for what I saved my purity and instead i got this ,,,
After that he went back and he said he wants me to be a good girl while trying to make me feel guilty for what I was not
I lost 4 -5 kgs last month just thinking of this and sleeves nights , until I couldn't take it anymore and finally broke up and blocked him
And in these 3 yrs he blocked me and broke up with me alot of times but I did it for 1st time in our relation
And I always begged him , said sorry not to repeat what hurt him or made him angry
But now he didn't even asked me once why u wanna end , instead i still was the one explaining what hurt me and why I wanna end hoping he would understand me .....
But i question myself what if I was not right or would have been better .......