I feel so depressed, hopeless and empty.
I’ve always gotten little attention from women, and have never been in a relationship before, and this one girl I’ve always had a crush on seemed to be the only one who really liked me and was seemingly giving me a lot of attention for a year. I thought things had finally changed and I would finally stop feeling so empty and that I would finally he happy and that it was my big break. So I confessed and turns out I’d been misreading the whole thing and got rejected, and it already hurt because I’d gotten my hopes up so much, and then she started dating a close friend of mine (who was only in the picture for a couple of months) which i just found out about when i saw both of them holding hands and walking and it just hurts so much. I’m back to being alone and having an empty life(which i guess i always had, so I can’t really be “back” to it). I just thought i was special, and it came crashing down so hard. I was back to watching from the outside, alone.
I have no other prospects, i feel so jealous, empty, hopeless, and depressed and I can’t remember the last time I was happy and I don’t know how I can ever be happy again and I don’t know how I’ll ever heal again. It feels so unbearable and like I can’t get out from under this.