Advice/support?
Hello! I’m writing here because I guess I feel like I don’t really have anyone that I can be fully honest with and I’d like some advice/support from people who have gone through similar experiences?
So I’m 19 years old and I’m almost out of high school. People see me as really hard working and someone who’s got their shit together, and I really like that! I do feel like I do well sometimes, but I feel this immense shame if I don’t live up to their standards(I.e whenever I’m struggling (aka now)). Now, something I haven’t told anyone in detail is my upbringing that I think still affects me today, or has kind of resurfaced(?). I find it really hard to ask for help as well since I feel like my friends wouldn’t understand. I keep getting nightmares all of a sudden and recently I’ve just felt really apathetic. I barely have motivation to do anything these days, and I’m confused because I’m “supposed” to be okay and “normal” now. I mean I do alright in school, I have friends, a partner, and I have a job so I don’t see why this suddenly has happened. I went to therapy when I was 12, and everything was going really well for a while until now. I’m just kind of confused. I’ve been skipping classes and my grades have gone down. Agh I don’t know! Has anyone else gone through this? If so, how did you get out of this?