I’m really confused
My bestie and I have been in each others life for about 20 years. We are both 34, always in touch and meet up every other month. I’ve always supported her and whenever she needs me I’m there, she had depression for around 3 and never left the house for around 18 months. I made sure I’d see her and be there for a week sometimes two. Obviously this can drain a person, but I knew I needed too because I would do anything for her. For the last two years I’ve been dealing with depression recently got diagnosed with OCD & anxiety, and also going through a divorce, she hasn’t come to see me not even once, I thought this so bizarre so I confronted her about this. She called me shouting (she’s only done this twice in 20 years and I warned her to never disrespect me by shouting) and said I have my own problems and it’s exhausting be there for someone when my life isn’t perfect. I genuinely understood her reasoning and apologised to her, it can be difficult being there for someone when you need to look after yourself. I gave her space and just thought I’ll just bother my therapist instead. Not even 10 minutes later she posted on instagram complaining saying “people need more friends and need to stop expecting friends to always be there it’s annoying exhausting” she literally wrote a whole paragraph. This really confused me we are not fucking kids to be indirecting each other on instagram, especially because I apologised instantly? Last week I received an email that she posted a blog post, talking badly about me and how draining it is to show up for people, and how people need more friends. It was at least 500 words, I don’t want to mention too much otherwise it might be to obvious. I’m literally going through the most difficult time right now. Am I overthinking because she’s displaying selfish behaviour and being extremely petty?