Losing my attraction to men
For most of my life I've been a pretty fem twink so people assumed I was gay. But I had a pretty strong attraction towards women and only started dating men as a teen.
Despite that, my recent experiences with men have been SO disappointing that I genuinely want nothing to do with them. It doesn't help that as a progressive guy with his shit together, women are pretty open and interested in me.
I feel like I'm betraying my gay friends by giving up on men entirely, but the sex has been SO BAD and I can't even bring myself to go on dates with them.
I feel so bizarre for losing a part of myself that's been a big part of my experience but I'm starting to feel like only bi men or women understand where I'm coming from. I still find men attractive, but it's becoming clear I just don't get along with that many of them. I don't know if I'm justified in taking a break for my own mental wellbeing...