What do I do?
Two years ago, my stepdad assaulted me and as much as I processed it, my mum has brought it all back up again.
I thought he was always bordering on sexual with his actions, like slapping my ass and play fighting me on my bed, but the older I got the more overtly sexual he got. He started calling me hot and staring at my body, he would purposely walk out of his room naked so I’d get a glimpse of him, he would open up my bedroom door knowing I’m getting changed. I know my mum noticed it but she never said anything and I kind of accepted as normal, I obviously know now that it isn’t. This stuff led to the final straw which was two years ago when I basically drank a whole bottle of vodka and got alcohol poisoning. I was taken to the hospital and given two IV bags which entirely cleared the alcohol out of my system. I got sent home with my mother at 2:30am in the morning and I can still remember the whole uber ride back home, because the alcohol was fully washed out. I was entirely lucid. I woke up to the sound of him breathing heavily in my ear and at first I just assumed he was checking up on me, sometimes he used to do that (which still makes me wonder what else he could have done). I pretended to stay asleep because I didn’t want to deal with the consequences of my actions, but he touched me. I remember moving just after and he freaked out and left the room and I didn’t know what to do, but part of me really wasn’t shocked. I told my sister and my best friend and no one else for months until I got the courage to tell my dad and stepmum (who I lived with half of the time) and then they convinced me to tell my mum. I have never seen my mum cry so hard, but then she met up with him and it all changed. They are still actively dating and I have known since the beginning even though she knows the truth, and she has implied that I got the details wrong and it wasn’t him but one of my male friends who I was out with that night. She thinks I’m stupid whenever I see her message him, he has blocked me on everything and is court ordered to not be associated with me but he still manages to talk to her. He has made fake accounts and I can always tell it’s him by the way she hides her phone.
I don’t know what to do because as much as I’ve accepted what happened and don’t necessarily think about it or let it affect me, my mother is betraying me. I