u/Extreme_Salt4141

Okay so to keep it as simple, we have kissed once, after our school formal. She initiated it after saying a few days earlier that she wasn’t sure if she was ready to kiss or not, I thought that after kissing that first time, she’d be ready to slowly progress. It was about a month later that I asked to give her a kiss, and she freaked out, moved up against the backseat of the car and covered her face, and I said sorry because I was shocked. I was dropped home about 10 minutes after that by her mother, who was not in the car when I asked to kiss her, and we just sat In silence after that. Then a few days after that, I asked her if she actually wanted to kiss, and she said yes but she just wants to take it slow, and that she got scared In the moment, but it had been about another month and she never seemed like she was ready so I asked her again if she was comfortable kissing and she said no, but she would be soon. I asked her how long roughly, and if it would be more than 3-4 months, and she gave me a definitive no. It’s now been 5 months, and she hasn’t said anything about it, I know the ideal thing to do would be talk about it with her, but it’s been made very clear that she doesn’t want to talk about it at all. We had our first kiss 5 months jnto our relationship, it’s now been 11 months. She has kissed and even made out with her ex a few years ago, which I think is part of the reason why. She is my first girlfriend and I’ve never kissed anyone other than her. At this point I think I’m going to give it until 1 year, then ask her about it and if it’s not either a “yes I am ready” or “can we just take it slow at first” then I’m going to break up with her, I’m not going to tell her this because I don’t want to pressure her, but it still feels terrible to have my relationship on a clock.