u/Extreme_Self1380

I 20F and bf 22 have been together for 2 years. For context I am a bigger girl and have always had self esteem issues because of this. I have tried losing weight but see no results and then go back to old habits. Now for the story so me and my bf went on vacation to the beach and we were having a good time and during an afternoon in he wanted to try a spice up our s$x life by recording it. I didn’t want to at first but he persuaded me into it. After a good 10 minutes I asked if we could turn it off because I just felt uncomfortable with the camera.
When he turned it off he laid back down and i stupidly said can I see it. Let me just say it was terrible lighting and it looked very cringy. He deleted it and I said ew I look fat. He then says yeah you do. I was shocked because this man constantly wants to do stuff and it always cuddling up on me and grabbing on me. When he said this I was upset and asked do you think I am fat. To which he replied yeah you are fat it wouldn’t hurt to lose a few pounds. This made me have a small panic attack and I started crying and left the room.
For 3 hours he never came to check on me. When I came back to the room he ignored me as I started to pack my bag and getting stuff ready for us to leave the next day. It wasn’t till we were going to bed I said so do you wanna talk about it to where he said what do you want me to say. After that whole fiasco he swept it all under the rug like he usually does. Whenever we get into a fight he just wants to forget about all of it and not talk about it. Or whenever he gets angry he blows up and then everything goes back to normal. I truly do love him but I just can’t forget what he said. Also I try and eat good around him but he never wants to eat what I do. He hates vegetables and only likes to eat fried foods yet he’s skinny as can be I feel like he doesn’t see that not everyone has a good metabolism and can be fit like him. So AITAH for being upset about his comment?