Left Christianity. Tips?
I left Christianity silently. Stopped attending church and stopped serving in church after a year of doing so. Do you all have any tips on practical next steps?
I apologize in advance if this post is in any way incoherent.
I haven't told my husband or other family members yet. I'm more relieved to finally have made this decision than fearful about the effects this decision will have on my social life.
Mostly I feel like I'm floating. I definitely feel this void where God used to be/where I put God. I stopped praying. Stopped fighting in my mind and calling it spiritual warfare. Stopped overthinking everything and came back to my body (still having trouble here).
Bit of context: I attended church regularly with my grandma until 15 when I stopped attending, I began attending again at 21, and I stopped attending again at 24 (now).
Im worn out. For the last three years of being in church and tying my whole purpose to God, I feel like a chewed-up piece of meat. The church I attended at 21 was really small, local, and close-knit, and my husband and I were immediately thrown into pastoral roles. 1 year later, we left. Then we attended another church for about a year as just churchgoers.
To sum it up, I think churchgoing and the resultant patterns of thinking and doing made me irrational and/or worsened what was already irrational about me.
I believe I will need therapy... i guess i kinda answered my question, but I still would love to hear from folks who were formerly religious. Thanks in advance