Please help with failed astarte rite, The rite worked then stopped,
Please help with failed astarte rite, The rite worked then stopped, I also talk about an entity clearning so its about 2 things, i typed details cause maybe they will help
I got an astarte rite done for me years ago, I read i could get a girl to like me if it would match up somethng like that, so it wasnt a garantee, so i paid for it, it was for a girl who i will call Lia, to like me. he said I can get women that are matches as if i want, i thoguht, thats better! so i left it open for a girl thats a match or Lia
when the rite was done, I went to where Lia works, she didnt show interest at all.
Okay fine, so i went home. 1 day later i go to walmart, near where i live, and i saw Lia! ... But why!? This is far from her job, i know people work far from their job, but ive never seen her there bfore, and it was odd to see her near me ONE DAY after i went to her work place, with no effort on my part. I thought maybe it was coincidence But if it wasnt, she was with a man, she didnt notice me, ... if this was astarte why would she show me this?
I felt a little insulted. But i thought .. could be a coincidence...
I went to bars to see if id get my match, and i got nothing no matter where i went......... nothng happened for 2 years, I started to think this was fake. ...........4 years passed. i go to walmart, the same walmart i saw Lia by the way. And a hot girl sees me, then starts stalkin me, i was wearing a face mask (i have a reason to). Its been 4 years, i forgot about astarte. I had mental attacks when i saw this girl. So i missed out on her, i was also in a rush leaving at the time. Driving home i thoguht about it more, rememebred astarte, now i believed in demons. After that day at walmart, i noticed girls being friendly after that for a few days only.
i go back to walmart to see the girl again, more than once, didnt see her.
( its been a year stil havent seen her, also i go to this is walmart often, but i went more in hopes of seein her ) i also went to other places , no other girls show interest. i eventually got mad
months later, i go to my mental institute. i talk to the secretary and she calls this girl, who had nothng to do with me. A cute girl shows up and is smiling, staring at me. I had to leave as my appointment was late, so i left, then came back. i have an huge anxiety type attack. I froze to calm down,
this girl shows up and was nice and asked if i wanted something to eat, i was in severe pain, i said no. WHne i calmed down, in abut 10 seconds, i left. Leaving my appointment.
lookin back i wish i stayed and took whatever food she offered but the mental attacks were sever.
Anyway when i saw her another day she saw me in the lobby but said nothing. So i assume she lost attraction or felt rejected by me
so i spoke to the guy who did rite, he said the rite failed cause of the 4 years and i should do a booster. Which is for me to call astarte, he said say thank you, and ask for help again, give blood on sigil, burn sigil. he said it as if i can call astarte and it wil just work, whatever, i did the booster, this booster was done months after i saw the last girl at the the mental institute
4 days after doing the booster, i see another girl
( lookin back i thnk this girl was gonna show up whether i did the booster or not )
this was a blink of an eye moment but i had more mental issues, as when i saw her my mind went blank and i didnt act on her, looekd at me and smiled, she was attracted. she walked past me. i feel like ths was some sort of mental interferance on my end. I missed her. never saw her again.
this devastated me, this mental issue i wasnt ready for (but experienced it long ago), so i thought next girl no way id miss her, NOTHNG wil stop me, i dont care wha happens im ready for all the mental BS that will happen............... well i havent see another one. I did more boosters for astarte, NOTHNG happened. I dont know if i offended her im so new to this.
so usually people say if you want it to bad or complain, you wont get anything, but i did that, and i saw girls anyway
ive been overthinking and i got results, 2 more girls, i heard some people say your beliefs dont matter the demon will do thngs anway, and other ssay youre beliefs do matter, i dont konw which is true. Sometimes i doubt it, mos tof the time .. sadly i thnking why i havent i seen more?
why havent i seen the 2 girls again but i saw Lia, the girl who wasnt for me, again?
i did boosters, and dont see any new girls, and i cant see the previous 2 agian when i saw them and had horrible mental attacks? during these booster rituals i asked for astarte for more thngs that were not included in the orignal rite, I dont know if that ruined things. I didnt ask for to much.
what are petition goals, i dont even know if this was a petition, i have not communicated with astare ever, im new and i dont know how to. its difficult for me.
i think i have entity enemies, i think theyre responsible for many issues through out my entire life and for the over decade time of my severe mental illness
So I got an entity clearing done, i told the person doing it about the demons so she wouldnt try to get rid of them. She said w the astarte rite, greys and reptilians are there ruining it
She also said i was taken to do some work with diffeerent alliances and had to give an oath while serving SSP ( i dont know what that is and she takes too long to reply) and other factions, and deeps bonds are not allowed in this life. Dont know how valid that is.
i dont know how legit she is but she did tel me things about mysel fi didnt tell her
Do greys and reptilians actually do this? i wasnt aware they were real entities
im desparate, wasnt that desparate years ago, why did it not work for 4 years? People usually you need to grow... i didnt grow much at all i think as the mental illess has stopped that. I dont see any growth contributing to a relationship. Also... why were those 2 girls not sent back to me? I Assume enemies are blocking this, or my mind? What might i be able to do?
I journal and talk about this to a recorder, expressing the pain. I cant get over this, It pains me to even write this. This whole process has been painful, even getitng help, there are issues, and its not because i believe there are issues, i noticed them it in time.
I need this, Please dont say i need to learn a lesson or somethng before i get the girl unelss you have alot of evidence, as ive aleady seen 3 women already meaning im ready to have them i assume. Ive been studying myself for years, having a woman will help remove my illness (I could go into detail but this is long enough).
i try to meditate when i leave the house to not think abut it but i feel like im jus tmasking the thoguths, or pushing them away, as they are very powerful. And i can feel them when they quickly show up to get angry that i havent goten something so important
if i have blockages, enemies, etc, why did it work? was it even astarte who did it?
what should i do?
i struggle to do spiritual things, meditation is hard, i dont know how soon i could talk to astarte
i dont know if i insulted her.
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Please be kind, this is a sensitive subject for me, and im not mentally strong right now, im coming here for help as a very ignorant person in magick.
I just need help, thats why i came to magick, and i guess i made a mistake as many people are saying i got scammed and most if not all people who sell magick are scammers.
Also, many people are saying im obsessed, but if something is very important to you, dont you think about it alot? Dont you put your time into it? Im super analytical.