u/F1shermen

So, for the quick synopsis, my Dad has been grooming me for a while now, and I'm just tired of it. The attention is nice, it's addicting really, but it makes me feel like an object, and even worse, I've been starting to have homicidal ideations. I asked my Mom for help, TWICE, and all she ever said was, "Just stop going into the attic." Which also translates to, "Don't go into any room where it's private and it's just the two of you." Which would be fair, BUT MY FUCKING COMPUTER IS THERE. AND THE WHOLE REASON I CAN'T PUT IT IN MY ROOM, IS SO I DON'T DO ANYTHING WEIRD ON MY COMPUTER.

Which is really counterintuitive if you think about it for even a second. She also lied to me about not telling my dad she was looking for a job, so she could help me. And then, she panicked for two days, then acted like nothing happened. Honestly, I've come to hate her more than my father. I've only liked him because he has something to offer, is actually really fun to hang out with, and pays for literally EVERYTHING.

And to make matters worse I'm too young for like 90% of youth opportunities, and I have no evidence that I'm being sexually groomed. 😃 Honestly, I'm so distraught atp, that I'd genuinely rather tell this to my local gym's employees just so it won't connect to my phone.

Now, for some good news I did ask my cousin for help, since he's really the only family member I actually like and trust, and I could temporarily stay with him, his siblings, and his mom. So that's good. All I really have planned out right now however, is just a list of stuff from wikihow and the first shelter I'll be heading to. I'm saying first because I want to cross state borders and go somewhere more north. Right now my list is just this. I'll add checks for the stuff I've gathered so far, I'm postponing some of them tho, just because I don't want to get some stuff too early.

• Cash
• Change for laundromat
• First aid kit ✔️
• Coat
• Sleeping bag (I need to figure out how to zip it back up soon)
• Socks ✔️
• Change of clothes (x2)
• Changes of underwear/bra (x4)
• Toothbrush/paste
• Pads ✔️
• Hairbrush
• Water bottle
• Non-perishable foods
• Pepper spray (I don't know how I'm going to get this)
• Deodorant
• Lighter ✔️
• Flashlight + extra batteries (I don't have a flashlight in my home 🫠)
• Shampoo and conditioner in one ( This one's going to be hard)
• Washcloth
• Razor/shaver/Nair
• Notebook and pencils/pens
• Umbrella (I don't know how I'll get this I haven't been able to find one)

Anyway, any advice on running away, or how to gather evidence against my Dad would be extremely helpful.