At my wits end with my partners drinking and mood changes
Im hiding in my bedroom from my drunk partner. Not because he is violent - he would never hurt me that way - but because of his mood swings, which trigger me because I grew up with a dad who was a menacing manic depressive.
My lovely gentle partner has drank since he was a teenager and is now on 8 cans every evening. He used to be a quiet drunk, but in the last 6 months he has become unbearable. Playing loud music until 3am, causing arguments, accidentally breaking my posessions because hes staggering about, and hes started getting leery. I think the alcohol is affecting him worse. He has started to have blackouts and yells in his sleep. If he drinks 2+ days in a row he skews situations in his head and takes things I say the wrong way causing an atmosphere in my home. The next morning he doesn't remember any of it and it starts all over again - lucky him!
Ive tried telling him over and over that his personality changes when he drinks, but he likes drinking and won't accept it changes him or affects him in anyway.
I'm so triggered by the mood changes because my dad was a manic depressive. I grew up in a volatile environment where everything could change in a second. I can't bear to be around my partner when he's drunk now, so I just pretend I'm tired and come to bed early. This pisses him off and causes arguments.
I love him but Im at my wits end. Im thinking of asking him to move out because Im so unhappy.
Sorry that was alot, I guess I just needed to get it out and make sense of it.