Trans woman - found a lump in breast.
I have been on HRT a long while now, nearly 15 years. I found a lump in one of my breasts. I have been adjusting progesterone and have had a recent amount of breast growth. It almost reminds me of when I first started HRT. The lump feels like a small pebble, it moves around when I feel it. I have breast sensitivity like I remember when I first started. I know trans women get something like this when the breast starts to develop.
I’m afraid to go to the doctor. First of all what doctor would I go to? What if they tell me to stop HRT? (I honestly think I would rather die than detransition).
Has someone experienced similar? I hate going to doctors, I have had many bad experiences…I have had some that have been outright hateful, it is traumatizing.
Anyone find anything during a development phase…how did it turn out? Has any of you experienced breast cancer? I eat terribly but have been massively depressed this year. Was fired from a job after having it for decades. I haven’t been eating like I should maybe one meal a day, but I’ve lost about 12 to 14 pounds in two weeks. I’m a little scared…does anyone have advice or experience they can share beyond go to a doctor? I always thought my breasts were too small for a mammogram. I still after all these years have imposter syndrome.
I have a wife, but she tolerates me…she loves me but she did not want me to transition. I just didn’t want to die in a man body filled with regrets.
This last year with all the anti-trans laws and the current administration trying to erase us…. I don’t know if I even want to be in this world anymore…perhaps this would be a blessing in disguise.??