Workplace bullies :(
This past week has been incredibly challenging. I’ve been trying to focus on the positive aspects, but it seems like negativity keeps finding its way into my life. Despite having a bubbly and friendly personality, I’ve been consistently encountering rudeness from people in various places, including the mall, restaurants, and even at my hospital job. Today, I had an incident where two techs talked about me while I was just 10 feet away, making derogatory remarks about my youth and the fact that I wear makeup (I’m 20 years old). This incident brought back painful memories of being bullied and having my insecurities talked about in school. While people often compliment my appearance, I struggle to believe it considering the amount of bullying I endured in my younger years. Dealing with the same kind of bullying at work was the final straw for me. I can’t comprehend why kind and considerate people are subjected to such mistreatment. It’s taking a toll on my mental well-being, making it difficult to form genuine friendships. When with the same people today, I tried to connect with them when someone added me to their conversation. But instead they brushed me off and started whispering. It’s utterly ridiculous how adults behave like children.
Sometimes, I yearn for the days when I had a close friend group and we could spend our time doing fun activities together. Instead, I find myself alone at the movies, forced to maintain a cheerful demeanor for the patients, even though I’m going through a similar struggle as they are.