r/rant

seriously

we are literally just matter. atoms, cells, chemicals, whatever. and somehow this stuff became aware of itself and now its sitting here asking "why am i alive" and "why does anything exist"

like what the fuck is this situation 😂

everyone just acts like being alive is the most normal thing ever. you wake up, go to work, eat, pay bills, scroll your phone, sleep... nobody stops and goes WAIT A SECOND why is there even something here??

why is there a universe instead of nothing?? nothing would make way more sense to me honestly. no matter, no space, no time, no consciousness, nothing. problem solved lol

but no, somehow there is all this stuff, and inside it theres these little clumps of matter that can actually realize they're clumps of matter and start having existential problems about it

and somehow THAT is considered normal

idk man. sometimes being conscious feels like the weirdest fucking thing that could possibly have happened

Today was my birthday and I invited 4 college friends to a restaurant. First, 2 of them came 30 minutes late, and the other 2 came an hour late. I had already pre-booked the food, so it had to be reheated.

And none of them brought anything. I’m not talking about an expensive gift, but even a small bouquet, even if they all contributed, would’ve been nice.

And okay the 1st pair had genuine problem because one girl got her periods midway. But the 2nd pair's behaviour felt so disrespectful.

They came, ate everything, talked (which I obviously liked because we have common topics), and then left.

Like… what the fuck bro 😭 Who does this? I’m feeling kinda sad about it.

Like currently dealing with a lot of mental issues and a friend asked me "how are you"

I was like "not great"

Then i explain why then they just go "just be happy". Well jeez thanks i didnt think about that.

I spent the entire afternoon cooking a prime rib low and slow. I took it out and left it covered on the counter to rest it for about an hour before searing and took a quick nap. While I was napping, my mom decided to cut it into tiny slices, decided it looked too rare (perfect med-rare btw), and stir fried them to well done. Ordering takeout now. FML.

There's been a long trend that happened so forcefully that people who tried to stop it were overpowered by apathy. People became the subject of other people's videos. Some people make content of themselves, and that's great, but more and more the subject of the video is not the person creating the video and often it leads to public shaming en masse, jokes, insults, etc and it's toxic to society because no one gets to be better, they just get to be destroyed.

There was a recent case where a woman was using a vibrator under a towel on the beach and was reported to police. What 20 years ago would have been an incident she could recover from, instead she went viral and in the following months killed herself. It took a month for anyone to notice the smell coming from her apartment. What would have previously led to investigations and calls for reforms, her death was largely looked over. A country that posts 988 like a mantra didn't give a damn that their actions had led someone to their death.

I'm all for investigations of convicted murderers and the like, but when I was suggested bodycam footage of a woman in a parking garage who was simply having a breakdown and committing no crimes, I thought something had gone very wrong. People are being preserved in their worst moments and used as entertainment. I don't think this is sustainable. In less harmful contexts, people are harassed on the street by content creators who, even if they succeeded, would have succeeded because of unpaid content created by someone other than themselves. Hopefully, someone out there feels the same.

during 14-20, I literally looked pretty chopped and I was literally a ghost despite me trying to make friends or just talk to people in general. tried going on those chatting sites because I was bored out of my mind and this girl literally bursted out laughing looking at me and I was just like “damn🥲”

so it just reached a point of hating the way I looked so I took it upon myself to go to the gym to lose my weight and took better care of myself. fast forward a year and a half, I actually look somewhat attractive.

the difference of the attention people are giving me is wayy different then what it was before. there’s women who actually pay attention to me, and people tend to be more friendly with me.

all I wanted to say, das crazy.