Is This Really My Life?
I don't even know how to start. I was diagnosed 9 years ago. I've made it through university and got myself a good job that I love. I've worked hard for the life I have. I love my life...
However, the depressive episodes still come. I rapid cycle, so they come around often, but last about 10-14 days. They're not always this bad. The severity changes. I'm in one right now, and it's pretty bad this time around. I have a job where I can't always go home when I feel this way. This week is one of the times when I just can't go home because no one can step into my specific role.
I know to my core that I don't want to die and that it passes. But... it. Sucks. I feel so down. I can't get myself to eat even. I don't know who to talk to. I have a great support system, but I'm tired of going to them and saying, "Well, I'm depressed once again."
So, instead of telling someone im depressed because my disability is disabling me, I turned to reddit. Thanks for listening <3