Please help me understand this experience
I’d like someone to help me understand something that happened to me last night.
To give some context before I explain: ever since I was little, I’ve had semi-lucid dreams. By that, I mean that in the middle of a dream, I suddenly realize that I’m dreaming, and I’m then able to change small details in the dream, like the ending, or give myself superpowers.
Recently, while talking about this with a friend, she suggested that I try to have fully lucid dreams. I hadn’t really looked into techniques for achieving them, but I decided to use methods I had experimented with through meditation.
So last night, when I went to bed, on a whim, I decided to pay attention to the way I was falling asleep. I lay on my back with my arms at my sides. I focused on my breathing and took deep breaths. At the same time, I was thinking very intensely about a very specific place and universe, Hogwarts, to be precise, because I’m a huge fan of Harry Potter.
I kept doing this for quite a while. And while I was doing it, right at the moment when I thought, “Okay, I give up,” I suddenly felt that my hands were extremely heavy, and I could no longer feel either my arms or the mattress beneath them. I could only feel that my hands were incredibly heavy. However, I could still feel my legs. And the moment I realized I could still feel my legs, I started feeling waves around my pelvis that moved upward toward my chest. Those waves felt quite pleasant.
They were real vibrations, and the more I focused on my breathing and on the universe I wanted to enter, the stronger the waves became.
I don’t think it was sleep paralysis, because while it was happening, I actually wondered if that’s what it was except I still felt in control the whole time, and I wanted it to continue. I wasn’t scared at all. I wanted it to keep going. I still had control over my breathing, control over what I wanted to think about, and I felt that if I had wanted it to stop completely, it would have stopped completely.
Could anyone help shed some light on this experience? What exactly did I experience? And do you have any advice if I want to explore this further?