I keep thinking about my bf's past crush that I literally don't know anything about but I keep imagining she's prettier than me and that he's thinking about her
This might probably be the most mild and silly post, but I discovered this subreddit and it made me think about some bad thoughts I've been having recently.
A while ago, me and my boyfriend were talking about his old job and he randomly told me he used to have a crush on the boss he had. He didn't tell me that much about her, except that she was a bit older and that he used to fantasize about her a lot. Immediately when he told me that, I felt a pang of jealousy so I told him to stop talking about other women because I don't like it, it makes me feel jealous, so he did.
Ever since this happened, I've been thinking a lot about it, wondering how she looks like since I have no idea, and imagining she's prettier than me and that he still thinks about her and fantasizes about her.
For some background I'm not the prettiest girl out there and he probably only said yes to dating me out of convenience, since he always complained about dating struggles before I asked him out, plus I've always been very agreeable and loving throughout our relationship. He's never said anything bad about my appearance tho, he does call me pretty, cute, hot, etc. But still, sometimes I think about every past crush he might've had and imagining he probably thinks about them a lot, more than me.
I know my thoughts are too much considering I'm his first (he's also my first as well), and the fact that other people here have it worse. I can't imagine dating someone with past exes, my jealousy would be too bad, especially if I myself were still a virgin.
Also, I'm NOT gonna talk to him about this, he would think I'm insane, I just wanted to do a quick vent to get this off my mind once and for all.