I want to end my life when my mom goes.
I'm 49 years old and I'm terrified of losing my mom. I'm planning on killing myself when I lose her. I don't want to go on living. Nobody really loves me except her. I have a couple of friends and others I know. But it's not the same. I never married or had children. I have a job, but I'm lonely without my mom. I well up when I think about giving her a hug. I lost my Dad four years ago. I can't go on without her. I'm too old to start over or be on my own. I'm constantly depressed thinking about no longer having her in my worthless life. Looking at my baby pictures caused me to cry uncontrollably. Mom holding me, smiling and looking so proud of me. She's never been disappointed in me. I don't want to go on without her. Without mom, I can't face the world and its daily horrors. I don't want money or material possessions, I just want my mommy 😭 to love me and be at my side.