I am sorry, for troubling you. But I'll love you, forever. Please be happy in life. Missing you since 2017.
So, I am a male(22) and I met a girl 8 years before in 2017. It was summer 2017, I was attending chemistry classes and there I saw her, on the very first day, I fell in love. It took 10 seconds to get lost in her eyes. After 6 months, probably at the end of 2017, one of my close friends advised me to confess & propose. I did it. She rejected me. I waited four more months and proposed again. And yet again, she rejected me. Our classes were over after 12 months and she and I wasn't in touch anymore. Then, I started an instagram account for contacting her and it worked. She used to talk with me like saying gm, gn. Not much more than just a formality but it made me mad happy. So I tried the third, fourth, fifth time all the way upto the tenth. She rejected me all the times uptil 2019. Then, she blocked me saying that she hated me. I get it, it was my mistake not respecting her decision and being stubborn. I am a fool and a loser. I get it. Then, afterwards in 2022, post-lockdown I created a new account and thought that I should now contact her and say a very sincere and a heartfelt sorry because I was crying the whole lockdown that I hurted a nice girl. So, I did. But, shie said she didn't care anymore and told me to "F.O". again, I am the fool over here to continue troubling her and I hate myself now kore than ever. She was with her boyfriend back then, and I am so very sorry to ruin maybe that minute or hour for her. But, what was I if not a boy mad in love ? Years kept going by, seasons changed, I graduated, got a job. And here we are, 2025. Now I am not saying that I am a 30/40 year old dude, but I have seen some world now, met many, many individuals, males, females. And, no one's, literally no one's eyes touched my heart like hers did. Now, I have learnt to live with my failure as I go on, keep this stab to my heart alive eveyday, bearing the ever increasing pain. But, unless she is happy, I am happy. I just want her to be with her dream guy and stay healthy, long and ever-inspiring. I am sorry for being such a troublesome loser. But love is blind, so am I. Miss you, love you, forever.