I always felt awkward around children
Well, yeah. I'm pregnant and I've never seen myself as a mom in the future. But I'm 29 now and for the last two years I was feeling more and more warmth toward children so we decided it's time to get our own.
However, I have always felt awkward around children, I never knew how to behave, I have never felt an urge to hold or hug them. Some women I know were getting completely crazy about our friends' child, and wanted to carry them all the time. But me... Never. I just liked to watch them from a distance, no interaction.
I am happy, I'm looking forward to changes and all the stuff that the future holds. But at the same time, I am scared as f*ck. I am scared that I will feel weird about taking care of our child, that I will be unable to express my love in a proper way.
Can anybody else relate? Doesn't matter if you're a parent-to-be, or your child is already born. Any kind of support will be appreciated...