I need everyone’s opinion…
Imma remain completely anonymous including both me and my partners age. However I am a (M) in a 2 - 3 year long relationship with my (F) partner.
To keep things simple and short- I’m mostly wondering where people draw the line on “cheating”. I understand cheating is ultimately a social construct but I’m asking this because unfortunately I have an extremely higher sex drive than my girlfriend. I love my girlfriend more than the universe and am incredibly grateful to have her in my life. But even after countless sexually frustrated conversations where I explain myself to her, our sex life remains the same…. Occasional and vanilla…
Background context: I cheated on my last partner (Had sex with another woman) and that guilt still eats me up to this day. I at one point in my current relationship met up with one of my other ex’s and played with her tits. (Not an excuse but I was definitely drunk.) I feel guilty as fuck for that too. I know I could never have sex with another woman in my current relationship but would committing meaningless sexual activities with another woman make me a horrible person? I don’t love any of my ex’s or have feelings for anyone else but my girlfriend. I will always be there for her til the day I die. But outside of actual sex, it’s extremely difficult to avoid “messing around” with someone else. I’m currently very tempted to get a happy ending massage but am worried the guilt will eat me alive…. The way I look at it is- it shouldn’t matter since there’s no personal or romantic connection involved at all and is nothing more than just a solution to sexual relief.
No wrong answers. Don’t worry about being harsh with your answers either. I just genuinely need your guys opinion on this and see from other people’s perspectives.