Is this ROCD?
So I’ve been dating my partner for around 10 months, I (F19) love my partner dearly; they are the sweetest person ive ever met and they make me feel loved and seen in ways ive never experienced. A few months ago I quit my job because of its horrible work environment and a few weeks after that I started having extreme panic attacks that felt like they lasted days (insane heart palpitations, struggling to sleep, insane nausea) all the works. These thoughts mainly was about my partner and if I wanted to be with them or if I still found them attractive, I told them that when I first felt that extreme panicked feeling and we were able to talk it out and I felt a bit better. Months have passed and I still have some of these lingering anxieties, like I can be content and when I’m just doing nothing or spending time with them i just get a thought like “what if you’re missing out on other loves you can have”, “you looked at another guy, you’re cheating on him”, “you’re doing pretty well alone right now, maybe you should stay alone” or the usual “you should break up” and it freaks me out. They’ve slowed down but the breaking up thoughts still hit my mind pretty often, I just started a new job and I’ve focused more on working but the stress of doing well at my job and having some arguments with my partner made me anxious about me being too occupied with work to “care” or “want to be with them” which i know isn’t true because I enjoy their company. I just want to know what’s going on and why I’ve been feeling this way, any advice as to what yall think this could be?