I’m so fuckin tired.
It’s like I’m constantly hit over and over again with stress, I’ve been spiralling for ages and the people who I thought were the closest to me have only been adding more to my plate.
I’m telling you I’m going through a lot, I have so much on my plate and you get mad at me FOR NOT TELLING YOU WHEN IM HEADING OUT TO WORK SO THAT WE COULD WALK TOGETHER ????
When I was young, my mom would always give me the silent treatment after we would argue, or honestly whenever she felt like she wasn’t bothered to speak to me. Now it has become an instant trigger of mine, this supposed friend of mine gave me the silent treatment after me not telling her when I’ve left my house, INFRONT OF OUR OTHER MUTUAL FRIEND. Blatantly, disrespectfully, just fuckin ignoring me.
I hate it, it makes my skin crawl.
I’m dealing with enough, I’ve got enough on my plate. I’ve got debt I need to pay, I don’t have my parents with me and they may not be able to come and see me graduate, I have basically no money left and the past three years have been nothing but stress for me, I’m constantly getting rejected from every job application and I’m on edge from being everyone’s emotional puppet.
Worst( or best part) is that I know that this will all be fine in the end, the only take away is that I’ll come out of it more fucked in the head and traumatised.