Am I doing this for the right reason?- Advice from a aspiring teacher
Hi Reddit,
Truthfully I'm not the best at writing reddit posts or post in general so please bare with me for the informalities.
I (22) am currently using Teachers of Tomorrow to pursue teaching as I felt that would be a good decision for me after graduating with my bachelors in May, although now I'm worried I'm making the wrong choice.
For context of what got me inspired to go back to school: I was attending college at a local college for elementary education, I had done one semester class where I shadowed a 1st grade class, assisted with the students and got to watch the day by day a 1st grade teacher goes through. The semester ended and I found myself attached to the students and even got emotional once the whole experience was over.
Heres the issue, I didn't know how to react to feeling of attachment and got scared and eventually dropped the major and perused communications in the after bouncing through several other majors. After I graduated with my undergrad I began to work an office 9-5 that's making me go insane. After awhile of some internal reflection on what career paths I wanted to go down on. I remembered how the shadowing and the course I took made me feel. I felt fulfilled and like I was in the right place for once. I eventually ended up researching and seeing what I could do to get my teaching certificate and found teachers of tomorrow. I've talked to a mix of my support group and family about this career change and what inspired me to go back and theres mixed emotions. On one hand of the spectrum there's the statements of "I wont make money off this" and support is mainly there so I can have a career set in place at the end of the day, then theres the opposite side where there unlimited support but almost feels echo chamber-ish. At the end of the day when I go to do my classes I feel almost defeated as I feel that theres no actual support and I'm making the wrong decision that everyone else sees but me. I feel hopeless and defeated at this point and feel like basing going back to teaching off a semester experience is also not making my point look great when I discuss why I want to pursue teaching. I feel insane and like I'm just in my head but whatever funk i'm feeling now has got me rethinking what I'm doing. Any advice in how I should proceed?