Was that sexual abuse? Tell me I`m not crazy
So recently I (28m) got hit with a repressed memory from when I was around 5 years old. I remember sleeping in our bed (we slept together with my mom) and I remember her boyfriend at that time was having sex with her, I woke up, look at them fucking and they just said "turn around, close your eyes".
When I rediscovered that memory it hit me like a truck. I started to remember all the little details from my childhood, like bathing me till I was 12, constantly checking and touching my asscrack (!!??), making remarks about my penis, telling me how she was proud of me being circumsised so my future wife will thank her, telling about her sexual life. All of that isn`t incest but that`s gotta classify as something wrong, right?
I am so fucking mad at all of that. I`m gonna have a kid of my own soon and I can`t imagine doing ANYTHING of that sort. That`s gotta classify as something pedophilia-related? Right?
We`ve been NC on and off for 3 years now, but this solidified everything. I`m not letting her near my kid. (Sorry for potato English)