Struggling with being "Myself" around a particular colleague.
Basically I started a new job within my company at a new site at the start of the year. Off the bat myself and my Supervisor did not get along and we are very different people. (like complete opposites, for example we're both young parents but she's the Neurotypical parent to autistic Kids, I'm the Autistic Parent with the NT child etc)
It became clear we did not get along and she didn't like me from day one, constantly talking over me, assuming, despite the fact I'm way more out qualified than her within the company, that I could not do basic tasks. After reporting her and mediation, she at least stopped her direct bullying, there's less direct stuff but it's nowhere near as bad as it was.
However, this has a huge effect on me.
I can't be myself around her. I sort of regress into my shell like how I was when I was a child. I begin stuttering, I forget skills, my short term memory is horrendous and most annoyingly of all, I involuntarily lose my confidence and struggle to get words out.
This does not happen around any one else. I'm highly respected in my team and people rely on me for my knowledge and high work ethic etc.
It does affect me slightly around the colleague who is her closest friend but nowhere near as badly.
So is there anything I can do on my side to help me be "normal"?
she's not the type of person who will have a quiet word and if I say anything to her it doesn't really stay quiet or confidential all the time.