Having diabetes and an Eating Disorder at the same time.
I feel so hopeless guys.
For the last year, I have developed an eating disorder, and piled with my diabetes, I feel so hopeless.
I went from 70KG to 52KG in 10 months because I can't eat anymore. I lack an appetite. I've been put on appetite meds but I still don't get hungry enough to eat. Sometimes I get hungry but I don't have the strength to cook. Looking at food tends to gross me out, and forcing anything down my throat makes me puke.
For four years in my life, my dad used to force me to eat all kinds of food to "cure" my diabetes.... plain yogurt, dates (a culture thing that is said to be good for the health)... when I couldn't eat dates anymore he forced me to eat cookies made with dates and cinammon... Sometimes I would eat 10-15 dates everyday and take insulin for it.
I don't even think I'm consuming 1000 calories a day, and I've gone into starvation ketoacidosis like 4 times this year...
I feel like my health is in danger but there's barely any meal that makes me happy... When I do get hungry once in an eternity, it's by late evening and my dad doesn't allow cooking past 7-8 pm because he can't stand the smell of food.
My life feels so hard and difficult (I've had T1 diabetes for 12 years and I'm 19 now) and I just don't know who to rant other than to strangers on the internet who might share my condition... my family doesn't understand my struggles and I feel so lonely...
Please tell me it gets better...