My mom doesn't like me, maybe doesn't even love me, and prefers my sister to me every single second of every single minute of every single hour of every single day. That has always been so obvious to me, to my sister and to mine and my sister's friends. My mom ignores it and refuses to talk about it. I have tried to tell her how it makes me feel but she refuses to talk about it.
My sister and I share a dad but he took off when we were 3 and 5. I remember him not being super involved but he said he wasn't cut out for dad stuff and him and mom fought a lot and that was it. He sorta acknowledged mom not liking me back then too and so it fucked me up to know he was just leaving me as the least favorite kid.
I don't know if my mom never wanted a son, whether she has issues with guys that she takes out on me or whether she didn't want a kid when I was born but I never felt loved or wanted by her. I never get treated anywhere close to how my sister does. She calls my sister her baby and she says she loves her every day and she'll always invite my sister to do things with her or come up with stuff for them to do together and any time I offer to help her with something or go somewhere with her she rejects me.
My sister laughs at it and when she has friends over they all laugh about how much mom clearly hates me. My sister's best friend sleeps over all the time and the two of them together is insufferable and my mom will hear everything they say and taunt me with but the second I lose my temper with them she's yelling at me and telling me never to speak that way to my sister again. Whenever I have tried to bring it up in front of others they didn't believe me and my sister would pretend she hadn't a clue what I was talking about. Then when it was just the two of us or the two of us and mom she'd taunt me for crying to people like a little baby.
So I decided I was going to make sure people saw and the last few times we were around other people I jumped in every time mom said she had something to do and I offered to help. Or if my sister said no to doing something with her I'd say I'd love to do it with her.
The most obvious one was a couple of days ago. My mom has friends coming to stay for 20 days and she wanted my sister to help her do a huge shopping haul for the 20 days and she promised my sister they could eat anywhere she wanted afterward but my sister didn't want to go shopping for groceries and stuff. I told mom I'd help her out and I even offered to go get other stuff she had mentioned wanting to get. My mom rejected me before I could even finish what I was saying and she did it in front of everyone. She realized how it looked the second she did it and then she got awkward and her family and friends were watching us like wtf.
She pretended it wasn't happening and I asked other family members to see what it's like and they were like okay yeah. Then my mom had to pull over when we were driving home because she was so animated and yelling so much and I thought she might even hit me (she didn't). She called me abusive for putting her on the spot like that in front of other people.
I kind of regret doing it because nobody seems to really care about what it's done to me and my mom is furious and she told me I owe her the biggest apology ever.
AITAH?