8 months clean! Couldn’t have done it without this community.
Just wanted to celebrate 8 years clean from adderall and Vyvanse, because I don’t have anyone else to share with! (shame and fear of judgement have kept me quiet)
I was abusing prescription stimulants for about 8 years, 6 years of that I had a prescription. Fell in love with the productivity after being called “lazy” and “slow” by my mother growing up. My addiction got so bad that I was chewing the XR beads to make the drug “instant” since my doctor wouldn’t prescribe IR due to addiction potential - YIKES!
I spent years in survival mode not even realizing that the drug turned me into a tweaker zombie with severe depression and anxiety. The last 2ish years of my use escalated from using it for work/chores, to using it to party and so that I could drink alcohol all night long. Eventually, I couldn’t have stimulants without alcohol and vise versa. Took me down a really dark path that I hid so well from the people I love.
It took a lot of work, but after 8 months I’m feeling great. I’d like to thank this subreddit (and Wellbutrin, lol) for pushing me through. I am now doing better at work than I ever did on stims, working out regularly, and overall feeling amazing. I still struggle to get things done around the house, don’t socialize nearly as much, and have waves of mental health struggles, but I’ll take anything over being hooked on something that eventually would have killed me.
Don’t be afraid to give Wellbutrin a try as a crutch, even if temporary like myself. It really helped me to keep my job and have some sort of quality of life while I worked on my recovery.
Sending love to anyone struggling. I promise the grass gets greener on the other side ❤️