My Parents are separating again and It's been hard to processes
So years ago when I was young my parents separated and by some miracle made amends. Then history repeats itself. I didn't think it would happen again let alone for the same reason. I don't know if I can mention infidelity but that's what my dad did again. My mom wants nothing to do with him anymore and I'm ok with that. I understand why and I do think it's best for both of them.
I don't know how I feel though. I am mad at my dad yes for how he hurt my mom and how he hurt me. He still cares about me so much and dose everything he can for me. Yet he hurt me. I am older now I have a job and I guess I'll be living with my mom she needs support from me and my job she's trying to make sure she doesn't relay on me though and I can move out soon.
Thing is I don't if I ever want to see my dad again. I have anxiety and think the worst. Will my dad be so hurt I cut him and get as depressed as I am. Will I want to make amends but I loose him or he looses me before it can happen. I mean I am old enough to choose this for myself. I just can't figure out. It's hard to see someone who hurt you still do everything for you regardless. My mom tells me to not waste time on him he'll be fine. Maybe he will I just don't know. She's upset too and justifiably so but she's made her mind up about him. I haven't he hurt me so much but I don't want him at all.