u/Familiar_Area5753

I have felt deep love, care, and sexual attraction for several women in my life, yet have always struggled mentally due to not understanding whether the feelings I’m having are romantic or not. Being Orchid, sexual attraction towards someone doesn’t mean that I desire anything further in a relationship. I don’t know what for me would differentiate between romantic and platonic love. Towards a woman I find attractive, they feel the exact same. How am I supposed to form a relationship with someone if I don’t even know if I’m romantically attracted to them?

I am 21 M and have spent my entire life since puberty wondering why I wasn’t like everyone else. I recently discovered orchidsexuality and for the first time feel recognized. I am sexually attracted to women, capable of getting and maintaining an erection, and am capable of maturation and find pleasure in masturbation, yet I have never once felt any form of desire to have sex. Traditional porn is a complete turn off for me. Vaginal nudity is also a turn off a lot of the time, as is toplessness. The female form is incredibly sexy to me, yet human anatomy is disgusting and repulsive. Orchidsexuality is the first explanation for why I am the way I am that actually makes sense to me, yet I know very little about sexual identity. As someone who has believed themselves to be heterosexual their entire life, I would appreciate if others more experienced and knowledgeable could help me. Am I properly describing Orchidsexuality? Is there any form of community? Where exactly does the name Orchidsexual come from?