Basically just looking for encouragement here. I'm 35 (f) and perpetually single. I date often, but rarely does anything last more than a few months. I had one serious relationship in the past 10 years that ended after 1.5 yrs because I didn't feel loved romantically, I felt like just an activity buddy.
I do all the "right" things- do loads of activities, have social and solo hobbies, have a very wide circle of friends and spend lots of time growing my community, spend quality time alone and happily do things by myself, go to therapy and work on myself, tell people I am looking and open to being set up, am on the apps..... nothing works. I consider myself poly because I believe that love is not a finite resource, but I thought by my age I would have had more chance to test that theory. I am starting to believe that I am never going to find any love at all.
I thought I saw it last year, like movie style love at first sight, but turns out after a few months, their partner was OK with an open relationship but not the 'amor' part of polyamory. So they chose that relationship, not me. And I think something in my finally broke.
Just tell me it gets better please, my soul is withering.