Today is my Angel Daughter's First Birthday 🩷🪽
My sweet little girl. It has been 1 whole year since I got to birth you, meet you, hold you, and have my heart expand infinitely whilst simultaneously shattering. You were so perfect, I can't believe we created you.
It is so weird to think it has been 1 whole year... I can remember it like it was yesterday. Especially as all the wattles are coming out here, like they did when you were born. It is sunny today, like the sunshine you gave us when we came home after weeks of rain. Letting us know you were still here, and were okay.
I have been dreading today a bit - knowing how hard and painful it would be. I think the lead up was worse - I have had so many resurgences of such strong grief - so many tears have been shed.
I miss you so much. I wish you were here, celebrating with us. I wish I knew your eyes, your smile, your personality. You should be crawling around the rug right now. That dream life feels so far away. Ripped away. It still hurts so much. I would do anything to hold you in my arms again, kiss your little button nose, stroke your cheeks.. every inch of you was utter perfection.
We love you so much, sweet angel. More than everything. Your little brother will grow up knowing about his amazing big sister, who is watching over him.
Happy Birthday to our Elara Rose.
You are our whole hearts. 💗