I have been mentally deranged for the past 7 years
Full disclaimer everything said is in the past and I regret my decisions. If you think I'm trolling thats because it IS this bad.
I started masturbating in 5th grade during the pandemic and did it very often because it was something to do when I was bored out of my mind at home. It started normal, looking up "sex" on google and clicking images. Now I just am beyond the point of repair. When my masturbation addiction started to get bad was probably 7th grade, when I started masturbating to furry porn. Didn't think much of it. just another thing to goon to. This eventually developed into a zoophelia kink and I have been jerking my shit to dogs and horses for a couple years now.
My sister: 8th grade I got home from school before EVERYONE else in my family. Including my older sister. One day I think "hmm I wonder what girls underwear look like in person." Now fast forward I'm masturbating in my older sisters underwear and swimsuit multiple times a week until she moves out of the house.
My Mother: older sister moves out, no more underwear to goon in. My underwear addiction spreads to my own mother's supply. I start masturbating in her underwear and find her lingerie as well. I have been doing this whenever she leaves the house now. fast forward I have a huge crush on my mom, and recorded her under the bathroom door showering twice.
My Cousins I have had a crush on my twin girl cousins about my age from middle school to last year. They come to our city every summer and we get along really well. One time we go to the lake, and then go to our grandma's house for a sleepover. During the sleepover, I wake up in the middle of the night, horny as shit. The logical thing to do? Masturbate with my cousins bikinis WHILE STANDING OVER THEM ASLEEP. I have done this twice now. Each time proud of what I did after I finished.
My Grandma: Fast forward to easter of 2 years ago. Grandma is wearing some tight athletic wear. Huh, shes kinda hot! I went to her room and found her underwear drawer, masturbated in like 3 pairs of underwear she had, and then took them home because she wont know they're missing right?? Almost every time I have been to my grandmas I have masturbated in her underwear and swimsuit now. Still have her underwear btw...
So yeah Ive been trying to quit porn and masturbating in general but I can't go 1 week without getting sooooo turned on by the slightest stuff and almost having an erection 24/7. I think I can't quit at this point because I have been addicted for the past 7 years of my life, but I have started to use mushrooms to try to change my mindset on this whole thing. Thanks for reading.