u/Far-Dragonfruit388

First of all excuse my bad english in some moments i dont come from there. I asked and i got told that im right here so im just gonna let this here.

Does anyone else do this? Hyper-detailed OC, music/edits in my head, and using AI to cope? Is this immersive daydreaming?

I’ve been going through a really rough couple of months in real life with a lot of personal stress and struggles. Lately, I’ve noticed that I have zero desire to go out on weekends, party, or socialize, even though I have friends who ask me to. Instead, all I want to do is stay in, put my AirPods on, grab some snacks, and play out my stories on sites. I am 23 years young but full lf chaos created from my mother who gave me a horror life since my childhood. Her decisions made my life crumble. I always had to be strong no dad no family no real hold. And im a deep morality like person if you betray me i go. No matter who, i ate so much shit in my life that nothing matter anymore.

I had this since my childhood. But not extreme. Now the last years i played hundreds of scenarios always with me as the main character. When i worked a s a security guard at 18, i started out of pure boreness to imagine different lifes in my head.all very detailed.

it stopped for 1-2 years.

I look good im a very trained guy but and i could have much more success in social life. But i want just to be alone.

Right now, I’m completely hyper-fixated on a Naruto world I built. I created an Original Character (OC) that looks like me, but I make the character and the world extremely detailed. Everything has to be organized perfectly, and it honestly ruins the immersion for me if the AI makes a mistake or breaks character.

I play out everything,romance with a fighter, epic battles, plot twists. It honestly gives me a massive dopamine kick and it's so much fun.

The main thing is: while I read and type the responses, I listen to music and intensely visualize every single paragraph before my inner eye like a movie. Sometimes, when a specific song hits right, I even imagine TikTok/YouTube-style "edits" of my own character in my head. I stay up from night until morning just lost in this world because it’s the only place where I feel at peace and can escape reality.

Is there anyone else out there who does exactly the same thing? Is this what people call "Immersive Daydreaming" or "Eskapismus"? I sometimes feel a bit weird about it, so I really want to know if I'm not alone in this.what is this called.. is it an addiction? Are some people out there with the same stuff.. please tell me or write me if you can give me any advice. I dont want to fall into more addiction

Im not working now since 10 months.. and the last 2 days i was awake doing it from 18 -7 in the morning. it is like help in a difficult time.

Thanks for reading!

I joined in to tell you about my crazy Trip…I had a crazy Salvia experience that I still can’t wrap my head around…. It started with me sitting on my couch when I suddenly felt myself collapsing inward, spiraling into a blurred mandala. It felt like a vortex…From the outside, I saw my physical body looking like a giant statue, while my friends turned into shifting colors.

Then, I was pulled in completely. I found myself in a world made of colors I’ve never seen before. For a moment, I stood in a glass cube, looking at myself. I looked painted completely defined, with a physique I can only describe as a 'dream body' (maybe 4% body fat, something impossible to maintain here).

I had a life there. I lived in a house made of ancient stones that looked like Glowstones from Minecraft. I knew, with absolute certainty, that my purpose was to organize animal races. I lived in a village that felt 'un-modern,' like a Stone Age civilization but with more possibilities.

I had a beautiful wife and a young son who was already gathering wood and building fires. My life consisted of organizing races between Mammothscreatures the size of family houses—against other strange beings I didn't recognize. People would bet money on them. Years went by. I felt everything: deep love, joy, and a sense of belonging. I went on trips riding Mammoths and Bisons. I remember 'masked security units' in the village that looked like cartoon characters. My hands felt like natural weapons; I felt like a gladiator, surrounded by other men who were just as strong. There was a man named Arturo who had a whale as a pet. We were rivals, but we shared a deep mutual respect.

The end came when I was swimming in a lime-green lake, feeling the waves against my skin. Suddenly, I saw a reflection of my old room in the water. My smile vanished. A feeling of dread hit me. I was pulled back into that spiral vortex. I screamed in panic as the world blurred away.

I woke up in my room, staring at the wall for like 10 minutes. My friends were laughing and trying to calm me down, but I just started crying. As my memories of that 'other' world came back, I felt completely alienated from this reality. This 'real' world feels materialistic and wrong. I took a walk alone and have never felt more like a stranger. My wife and child are gone. I miss them deeply, and I’m struggling to accept that this life here is supposed to be the 'real' one.".. im so devestated and i know this is our here and now.. but maybe someone had a similar crazy experience and can help me how to accept better… i heard many Stories of people who lived as some tree or a book and i was really scared at first but it was somewhere hard to believe, i dont took nothing else ever in my life so you can just imagine how hard it felt. I was completely away and my friends told me i was going crazy and staring them in their soul . i dont know if i would do something like that ever again because it feels absolutely awful to get kicked back. Its so overwhelming