living with schizoid & bipolar 2, can we live without fantasy?
a couple days ago, my headphones broke. seems like a problem of very minimal significance given the general state of the world right now and I would naturally agree. but the truth is, im 20 years old, out of school; and after getting fired a couple weeks ago, out of extra money for anything outside basic fundamentals like food, phone bills, etc. i was only diagnosed with bipolar depression this month but obviously im not new to any of the symptoms, i just have a direct name for them now. therefore due to the nature of my very bad days and/or very good days, i tend to fantasize quite a lot. in fact, the thing that reaffirms the schizoid i have isnt just my strong desire to be alone by myself, but my pretty much automatic tendency to fantasize whenever I am alone, which of course, is everyday unless i need something from a store or something. what is the direct and automatic key to said fantasization you might ask? well you probably guessed it, my headphones. theres never a moment that i ever leave my room without my headphones. ever. but now they are broken. what did this lead to? two of the some of the most insufferable days ive had in recent memory. ive only just been diagnosed with bipolar 2 so my psychiatrist appointment which will get me medication is a month away from now; but as i lay on the floor writing this because i genuinely do not have the strength to get up right now, is it genuinely impossible to live without our own deep and detailed, internal fantasies? I ask this question more so to find out what medication for schizoid actually does, even though i know medication isn’t something a lot of us are fond of for our diagnoses. will medication take away my painful yet automatic desire to use my headphones to escape? any advice would be greatly appreciated as this is, sort of, a cry for help😃😃