Has any other subs been forced into a dom position and absolutely despised it? I never see it talked about and I’m still struggling with trauma from it
So I’m 100% sub, I make it abundantly clear with every single one of my partners. A few years ago I was dating a switch, we weren’t aware of our sexual preferences until after we began the dating process, when we did finally have the conversation I said “I don’t dom, and I’m sorry if that’s a dealbreaker, they said it wasn’t and that it was fine.. well a few months in was when they started inquiring that I maybe try, and I don’t mind experimenting so I did, realized I hated being in that position and it turned me off completely. However they continued to pressure me into that role making me despise sex as a whole, even at one point pressuring me to wear a strap on (I am AFAB and a bottom) and I hated it, every second of it, the whole time I tried to imagine I was just somewhere else until it ended, the pressure to do what I wasn’t comfortable with never stopped until I finally broke things off with that person. Eventually leading me to 3 years of voluntary celibacy because I couldn’t stomach the idea of ever having sex again. 3 years later and I’m dating someone whom I love so dearly, and I have explained all of this to him, but I can see he is kinda a switch and sometimes will test the waters of what’s okay and what’s not which is fine but I keep having to explain “I’m sorry I can’t, because I was forced into that role I can’t do it at all without feeling disgust” and I hate it, I hate that I can’t dom or anything for him without wanting to curl up into a ball and cry. I’ve never heard of anyone having this problem as a sub and I just feel so alone, i don’t know I’ll probably delete this but I just feel like shit.