I feel like I’m going to be alone soon
I (F23) and my bf (m25) have been going through a really rough patch in our 6 year relationship recently and the last few talks we have had are of him feeling like we are growing apart from each other and that maybe it’s time for us to move in our own separate ways. The idea of this is terrifying to me bc I don’t feel this way, I never thought anything was ever wrong in our relationship or that we have been growing apart so it’s been extremely confusing to me. The idea of being alone after 6 years, of not waking up next to someone you love is devastating to me and I understand it’s not a choice I can make. If it were up to me I’d want to stay with him and work whatever this is out bc I genuinely haven’t thought of what life would be like without him. I just can’t imagine waking up in an empty bed or getting up in the morning and not having him there for our morning talks and smokes, going to bare bones every time we notice his his jackets and boots getting weathered, always asking me what I want to eat first even tho I never know, or not being able to rub his head full of thick brown hair or seeing our dog get excited to hear his car in the drive way, the smell of his shampoo after his shower lingering in the bathroom, even his socks being strewn around the living room are things I’ll miss, Things are really really confusing for me as of right now and I’m not sure what to do. I understand im a “baby” in life and he may not be the one but this is a first for me in life so be as gentle as Reddit will let.