I feel like I spent the best years of my life with my wife
My wife (f30) left me (m30) after a 10 year relationship. We met in college and basically grew up together. We started living together fairly quickly, were looking for our first jobs together, traveled the world together, made many many new friends together, and were (at least I was) to enter the new phase of our life together by having kids and settling down. We were young and fun in our 20s and I think that this was the best time of my life.
Now she left and I'm all alone. My job sucks, my parents are getting old, friends settle down and have kids. While there might be a few happy moments for me along the way, I think that the best part of my life is over. Yeah I know "I'm still young and blah blah blah" but let's be honest -- I don't personally know that many people whose lives got significantly better after they turned 30. And I'm fine with this, I guess this is pretty natural, we all grow up eventually and life becomes less exciting.
But I just don't know how to appreciate all those memories that we made together along the way. I don't even feel angry (even though she left me for my all time best friend), but just insanely sad. And this fucking sucks. I just want to learn to appreciate the time we had together instead of trying to wipe this part of my life from my brain completely. Cause I feel like our memories is the only thing we can hold onto in life.