u/FarCockroach80

So I don’t know how I even managed to get to 5 months. My baby boy had severe colic symptoms and diagnosed reflux and would cry constantly and not sleep much at all. I was extremely sleep deprived and becoming delirious. I am only now slowly sleeping a little bit, but I am still exhausted, I barely come find the time to brush my teeth. I do not have any family nearby and my husband works full-time. I feel stuck. I cannot get my nails done or do small things that make me happy. I do not have the energy to see my friends and I haven’t managed to take my baby to one class yet. I filled my marriage is breaking down after catching my husband watching porn and looking at women on social media as well as searching up his ex-girlfriend’s claiming he was curious as to what they had got up to of course he apologised profusely and fought to never do it again, but I feel undesired And have extremely low self-esteem. He previously led a life of multiple women on the go. I would like some support and advice on how to improve our relationship. We do occasionally go to dinner but i’m so exhausted and I do my best to get ready and look nice but it feels forced. I feel like there is no passion and he is just pretending to fancy me because I told him he doesn’t compliment me enough. He also has children from my previous relationship and I can see there is not a very good bond with them, they are very detached from him, despite how I see him try with them, they are unbothered (ages 7-16)he unfortunately was raised in a very cold household so I would also like some advice on how he can bond with the baby. I would only like positive advice on how to improve the relationship and I’m not looking to leave at the moment.