There’s this guy I’ve had an on-and-off emotional situation (we never hooked up) with for almost 2 years. We met in class and he asked for my number and I already had a crush on him. I was almost always the one breaking the ice, reaching out first, trying to reconnect, trying to make things work. He always would tell me he felt a lot for me but that scared him and made him scared for me to leave if he opened up and said to have a lot of trauma from the army. Recently I tried to meet up with him when I saw him in the campus and messaged him and after that he ghosted me for an entire month. Before that he was always making up excuses claiming to be sick or whatever it was.
Bottom line is that he’d do anything and spend hours talking but never actually meet me in person. I am attractive, I don’t understand why he didn’t even wanted to hook up.
Then this week, for the first time ever, HE reached out first. He called me beautiful, but he never acknowledged the ghosting or apologized for disappearing after my attempt to meet him. I didn’t answer because honestly I was hurt and waiting for something more genuine, like “I’m sorry” or “let’s meet and talk.”
After I didn’t respond, he deleted the message, unfollowed/deleted me, and then started following a bunch of random girls right after.
Now I’m stuck questioning myself. Part of me feels like I finally respected myself and stopped instantly accepting crumbs. Another part of me wonders if I ruined the only chance for things to finally be different.