u/FarEfficiency7867

Hi all,

I’m wondering how people navigated career breaks in nursing for the sake of having and raising children.

I want to know the emotional side whilst also the practical side. Tbh im quite new to the world of working and also my partner and I are wanting kids in around 2 years from now and its not something I take lightly. Long term, I want to stay in nursing.

When did you guys return to work? How accommodating/understanding were your managers about stuff like this? Did you switch roles or careers?

Also if theres anyone that manages bedside nursing regularly with parenthood, how do you find that? The idea is quite daunting to me. Another big one, I’m nervous about losing my skills or being out of the rhythm- how do you combat this?

Salaam

Im so done with this. Forgive me for my continuous rants about this one topic but it’s invading every fibre of my being. Im hypersexual, ive been trying to control myself bc i give into some urges which i should not. I feel guilt most times when I do it. When i have a hard relapse I tend to go into the mindset that ‘theres no point stopping, its easier to just give in’ and i feel little to no guilt- just like a hole of a person.

Ive been really struggling with other things. Ive tried reaching out but wallah everytime i get half way there (to getting help) i just go mute. I dont understand whats happening. My imaan is suffering, I feel terrible and theres so much conflicting hadiths and proverbs (idk the actual word for what im describing) that essentially tells me im going to hell and im not muslim.

I feel so much guilt, so much conflict within me. I sometimes feel like i feel too much. Ive given into bad habits. I was three years clean from injuring myself but i gave into that. Im not the same. Im so different. I cant put it into words but i cant be here.

I know i dont have it as hard as the prophets or the sahabas. I know i am weak you dont have to tell me. My mind is in ruins. I feel taunted by God, i feel like my entire life is a humiliation ritual. It feels like god is putting me in a box and then telling me to be someone completely different.

Anyways, hope you all are well

Edit:

I know why im hypersexual or have a pretty good guess since these behaviours started since young (doomed from the start). I was assaulted in that manner when i was a little girl