I suppose it’s goodbye
Hi K,
I’ve been thinking a lot over the last few months and I’ve found it difficult to fully let go and move on from us, after everything we shared over nine years. I miss your presence in my life, and the routine and comfort of being able to talk every day. You were my first true love.
I know I haven’t reached out much since I’ve moved cities, other than the house stuff, and I just wanted to say that’s mainly been me trying to give both of us space and protect our peace while I try to figure things out emotionally. I respect your decision completely and I understand we both need to move forward separately.
I’ve also been reflecting on the relationship and I wanted to acknowledge my side of things. I didnt show up as well as I should have in the later stages of our relationship, and I’m sorry for that. I know that the loved we shared was 100% real but I also know relationships take more than just loving each other to succeed. It’s a team effort and being understanding of one another and just being there when it matters. I’ve thought a lot about how I could have done better in all of them aspects. I want to make it clear this message isn’t me asking for another chance, I’ve had too many. This message is me just saying the things that have been on my mind.
I know I said I didn’t want to, but I wished we could’ve stayed friends and we could’ve stayed in contact with each other because after 9 years there’s no one I’d rather have a conversation with, but I also realise that wouldn’t really have helped me move forward properly, so I understand why space is necessary. It’s not about not wanting to speak to you, more about trying to accept what’s healthiest for both of us.
I don’t know whether you’d want to hear from me after all this time, but I just wanted to be honest rather than leave things unsaid. I hope you’re doing okay and you are finding some peace and happiness.