Boyfriend ruining my life tbh 21M 20 F
Me and my boyfriend have been dating for 5 years .
First I want to say that I understand some people don’t have a problem with this but for me personally it’s hell . he keeps looking at girls online even though I’ve repeatedly explained how much it hurts me and asked him to stop. Iv even threatened to break up with him , but he doesn’t give a flying duck and does it anyways . I’m upset because he keeps promising to stop and then doing it again anyway. Every time I look at his phone he’s been looking at girls . He even compares me to them saying their body is better and that I should loose weight. (I am a perfectly normal weight , we’ve both been going to the gym together for 4 years and I’m happy with how I look )It’s been a constant problem in our relationship. I honestly think he has a thing for really under weight girls and I am just not willing to risk my health to be that just because it’s what he wants .Literally as soon as he turned 18 he subbed to of girls that were very unhealthy . I’m tired of checking his phone I feel like I want and deserve respect In this relationship.
It’s seriously affected my trust and how secure I feel in the relationship and honestly it just pisses me off. I’m starting to really hate him in a weird way but I still feel like I can still change him for some reason . I feel emotionally drained from having the same conversation over and over and feeling like my boundaries aren’t being taken seriously.
The hardest part is that I know I could do better for myself, but I still don’t want to leave him. I just wish he understood that I stay because I love him, not because I don’t have other options.
What do I even say to him or do about the situation?