u/Far_Daikon_7419

Looking at this world and life im slowly starting to realize more and more how absolutely absurd being alive on this earth is. How actually nothing makes sense. We are just slaves running around in circles. Nothing seems to make actual sense for very long if you actually think about it. Its why absurdism has only become the only mindset that makes me feel free. There is only suffering in trying to find meaning in all this chaos

"Free will" but we didnt even consent to be born by random people we didnt even know beforehand? Like what if your child doesnt even want to be alive and they can't even take themselves out if they wanted to so they basically stuck with a life sentence they have to sit out? Some free will

Has been my default mode lately. I dont understand. Is this freeze mode or what? Bc i end up not doing anything, its lowkey torture

I genuinely have to think a long ass time to remember what i did last friday or have to look up cues on my phone. Thats only 5 days ago man i dont think this shit is normal for a 21 year old. Also i keep forgetting words and making more grammatic errors, i genuinely feel demented some times.